I go by the name of "Shaostyle" on the internet. Im working my way up on YouTube and want to become a movie director. I decided to document my progress as a way to share real life experiance that you can not get in school.
Ok so first of all I have no “YouTube success”. I’m just posting my thoughts from a video about dealing with an internet audience from YouTube channel “boogie2988”.
Heres the video.
So assuming that you just watched the video. When I started making content on a weekly schedule to gain an audience, my main goal was to improve as a content creator by receiving feedback and accepting critiques. I’ll also admit that I was searching for the ad sense revenue. Not because I thought it was easy money, but because I love the process of making videos and being able to support myself by ad revenue sounded like a great idea.
Well google fucked everything up by allowing ANYONE with an account to monetize there videos. So this resulted in a gold rush that saturated the community with competitive channels, especially gaming channels, and also I feel that a sense of hate and envy started building up because only the well established channels gets to be in the search results not the new, starting channels. I’ll be honest and admit that I hate the fact a “Popular” list is added on my YouTube homepage. If you disable that than you get a message saying “by disabling this you wont be recommended on other channels” or something like that. At this point it makes little to no difference for me, so I disabled that list from my homepage. I’ll also admit that I hate the fact that when you visit a channel that has a million subscribers only promote other channels that already have a million subscribers and those channels do the same shit. Its pretty annoying seeing the top channels only promote each other, and never a smaller channel that I’m sure they like.
So yeah, the sense of competition to get to the top, and to stay at the top has created a bad environment. My goals are still the same though. I want to become a better film maker and use the internet to help get my ideas off the ground. Two examples of this are
"Hobo with a shotgun" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1LlazPgxKrA
"Kung Fury" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=72RqpItxd8M
I’ll also add Robert Rodriguez’s “Machete” to the list. These movies started out a just trailers. And thanks to the internet, enough attention was build up that they became movies. So maybe the Internet fame is not for everyone, but the internet is definitely powerful to help get your ideas up and going.
Thanks for reading and peace.
Visit my YT channel https://www.youtube.com/user/shaostyle
January 11, 2014
So first of all Happy New Year! So in a past post I mentioned how excited I was to learn that one of my first shorts that I helped edit together named “Phobia” got accepted to a Horror film festival.
Obviously me and the rest of the people that were involved got excited about it and I couldn’t wait to see something that I worked on in a room full of people. So this film event just happened yesterday from this post and this is how I feel about film festivals and what happened at this specific film event.
OK so being I’m trying to be very objective as possible here. Its easy to get your passions all mixed into an event were something that you worked hard on gets elected to be screened but I’ll try to explain things with out sounding like a whiny bitch. Also keep in mind that I’m explaining this as a film maker that is trying to expand his film opportunities. If I was there just to hang out and watched fucked up shit, than this would of been fun, but as someone trying to network this event pretty much sucked and I’ll explain why.
So to be completely honest I feel that film festivals are a rip off. Now I haven’t been to a major film festival but so far I worked on 3 individual projects aimed to be submitted to a film festival and so far they have all be a disappointment. The first one was a 2 day film competition. I spent an entire night drinking energy drinks to finish a short video to submit in person the next day. We finished on time and after spending all that time and destroying my health with neon green fluids, the video was not accepted for whatever reason.
Here is the video I’m referring to https://vimeo.com/47060242
The second was something me and my friends put together and even raised money for named “AfterDeath”. I spent 2 months straight doing all the editing and VFX stuff and unfortunately this video also did not get accepted.
Finally, the horror short that did get accepted, “Phobia”, was showed at 3 in the fucking morning and more than half of theater has already left! So what happened at this film festival. Well this is what I was hoping to happen. I’ll show up, get a name tag with what my film specialty is, editing, and being able to meet other film makers along with handing out my business cards.
So what really happened at this film festival. Well everything was pretty unorganized. Everyone kept to their groups without trying to introduce themselves to other people. The only person I talked to who I didn’t know was the signer of the band providing the live music. She was really cool and friendly. Her name is Sara Mayhem she plays industrial style music.
You can check her out here. https://www.facebook.com/saramayhemMusic
The showing was in one of the theater rooms of the Raleigh Studios. This theater was less than half the size of a regular movie theater. The film event started at 11 pm. The host introduced himself and talked for a bit than after all that the videos began. When the movies started playing the theater we pretty full. In between the short videos, 1 feature length film was shown. Now I don’t want to go into reviewing the main feature but what really got me disappointed was that the majority of the people there left after they showed the feature film. And that really fucking sucked because the short I worked on was showed last after everyone left. Also, I don’t understand why they didn’t plan to show the feature length movie last!
So yeah, my hopes to watch something I worked on in a room full of people went down to shit at that moment. Literally it was me and my girlfriend with the director and his family with a few friends that stayed to watch the video with a few other people not involved with our group. Now I’ll admit there is some comedy to that but I cant really explain how annoyed I was to see more than half the theater leave right before our short was about to be showed.
So my final opinion about film festivals. As I mentioned I feel that they are mainly a rip off and here is why. Lets say I start a raffle for a $50 gift card, and to be part of the raffle you give me $5 for a ticket. Obviously it sounds good to have a chance to win $50 with only $5. So now lets say that I was able to get 100 people to buy tickets from me for only $5. So after I collect all the money, I made $500 by only giving out a $50 gift card and I’m left with a $450 profit by just starting a raffle.
I honestly feel its the same shit with these film festivals. Because so far each of these festivals that I helped submit a video for have entree fee’s. Depending on the film festival the fee’s can be from $20 and up. When my film group submitted our “AfterDeath” video to the Irvine film festival, our submission fee was $30. And these guys get thousands of submissions that they screen through and only pick a few that they feel meet certain criteria. So as a film maker I don’t like the idea of them but if I was a film fan then they can be fun.
With the feature length movie of the night, before everyone left, they had a Q & A with the cast of the movie and it turns out that they had a fan base supporting them. The movie was called “Truth or Dare” by Jessica Cameron.
and they mentioned that they had a indiegogo account to help raise money for their film. Now this film is very gruesome and not something I’ll expect to see in theaters everywhere so if your a fan of these type of movies, and you fallow these film creators, then this film event is great to see this type of movie on the big screen. I guess the majority of the audience was mainly there to watch this movie. Because the moment the Q & A was over, more than half the theater got up and left. Also, they made it seem like the film event was over so there may have been some confusion.
So what to take from this extremely long post, well I still believe gaining a following is the best thing to do if your an artist. Because if you visit the directors IMDB page of “Truth or Dare” she has a good amount of movies that she acted in, so I can only assume that she already has a pretty good fan base supporting her. So even though it did suck seeing everyone leave just before our video was about to play, I can only say that the internet now a days is your best friend. Being able to create a community around your work or having your work in a community is a big support. But showing your work to a room full of people that don’t know you can be a waste of time and resources. Because even though there were some short videos that I did like, I still haven’t gone out of my way to find out more about the creator of those videos, and I doubt I will.
So thanks for reading if you made it this long, and keep making stuff, peace!
January 2, 2013
I been a lazy shit all through out December and I’m slowly working back to my schedule of making stuff. So this year I decided to try out something new. I made a quick VFX with C4D about 2 years ago, and it was a short clip of my girlfriend being frozen than shattering into little pieces. The render time for that C4D clip took 2 fucking days and it discourage me from messing around with 3D software after that. I thought I’ll just focus on After Effects and find someone else to do the 3D stuff for me. Well that proved to be a bad plan.
I guess it all depends on what direction you want to take your videos/films but knowing how to work with more than just one software will catch up to eventually. There is plenty of videos on YouTube with 3D models on a green background to use but when you want something specific, you have to work what you can find. Also, the quality may not match with your project so it kind goes against with what your are working on.
So as a new year goal of mine, I decided to start working with C4D again and mainly start focusing on background design, set extensions, matte painting and anything else that involves in creating a good background. I’m pretty comfortable with After Effects now. Lately all I been doing is messing around with color grading settings. I know my way around After Effects now that I can figure stuff out on my own with out spending too much time on research. However, learning C4D is like starting at zero again.
Oh well, no matter how much you think you know, there will always be something else that you got to learn if you don’t want to have any restrictions with your work.
Thanks for reading and peace.
So for starters I want to confess that I decided not pursue the “career” of film making anymore. Now that doesn’t mean I’m no longer interested in film making, what I’m saying is that I’m over with the “chase” of a film career. One thing a mainly noticed when working with “certain” film makers is this stupid EGO they have as if they are ending world hunger with their presence on set. They boost more about the kind of equipment they have rather than what they are able to do with it, and its something that annoys the fuck out of me. Also, giving someone I don’t know 12 hours of my day only for pizza really sucks balls, especially when I don’t see/speak to the movie director again after that.
Now don’t get me wrong, I met some great people, had a lot of fun on set, AND IF MY FRIENDS WANT TO GET TOGETHER AND MAKE SOMETHING I WILL! But overall my main goal is simply CREATING content that I can share with people. And recently I realized that I been focusing more of my time and energy trying to get my hands on a job rather than spending that time and energy on my OWN work.
When I was looking for film work within Orange County, I got two interviews. Both of them said something identical that I will never forget. Both of them said that they get annoyed with the daily calls and emails from recent college graduates looking for work when they already have enough help. The only reason why they called me back is because they liked what I did with my film reel that I sent them and they they didn’t gave a fuck about my resume. So that along with the other little bullshit that I been through makes me realize that I just need to focus on my “art”.
So whatever, I love film making and I’m just gonna focus on getting better at it. I figure somewhere down the line someone will notice my skills and than maybe would like to hire me because of it, not because I can wrap a cable, follow orders and accept pizza as pay! FUCK THAT! To my other film making buddies, do whatever you feel you got to do.
December 11, 2013
So many channels on YouTube that focus mainly on reviewing video games and movies are freaking the fuck out over the content ID claims that prevent them from being able to monetize their videos. YouTube channels that have made a living by creating good content and monetizing their videos are in a bad spot because even if their videos are considered fair use by law, they still have to go through a long process of getting the content claim removed from there videos that can result in loss of views and revenue.
One of my favorite movie reviewers go’s through this process and explains the situation in better detail with his video.
OK overall I feel that having only one main source of income in your life is fucking suicide. You never know what can happen down line and having more than one way of making money is the best thing you can do. I tried my hardest to be part of this YouTube video making lifestyle and you really have to dedicate many hours of the day to produce the best video possible and be on a rock solid upload schedule. And it can take a few years before you start making enough money from having ads on your videos.
I haven’t reached that level of making a living on YouTube and recently I decided not to go after it anymore. For nearly a year straight I quit my day job and focused on making weekly videos and BELIEVE ME that can really eat up your time and money. I couldn’t continue that lifestyle so I got my old day job back and now I just focus on getting better at film making as a hobby.
So either way I feel bad for these channels that have invested many hours and lots money into their YouTube channels, but the sad truth is that something like the internet is in constant change and just having your YouTube channel as your only source of income is a very bad move in life. So even though you have a job, find other ways to make money, sell stuff online, maybe find a new hobby that can make extra cash with, be a babysitter or something, but whatever you do, DON’T HAVE ONLY ONE SOURCE OF INCOME!
December 8, 2013
So first of all happy holidays, marry Christmas, happy whatever you believe in, and if you don’t celebrate anything than just enjoy whatever is going on around you. So lately I felt like I been posting a lot of downers and honestly NO, I’m not depressed or upset but I have been a bit unmotivated to do anything film creative. I’m not satisfied with the progress I have made in regards to my film “career”, and recently I feel that has been my main problem.
When I started making video for YouTube, I fell into the whole mindset of “I can make money with my videos” type of thing, and I started creating videos with that in mind. BIG NO NO! Since I was creating videos with the only intention to make money, I believe that has limited me as a film creator. I was focusing more on creating the type of videos that would get me more views, rather than just creating something that I could be proud of. Of course every videos I have made I’m happy with, but I feel the great majority of my videos don’t satisfy that creative part of me.
So yeah, if your aiming for the YouTube spotlight, that desire to “be in the spotlight” can screw you over. Because honestly, you have many other people going after the same thing on YouTube, and if they are all doing the same thing as you are, than your just gonna be buried under the same dead horse that every one is beating the fuck out of.
YouTube channel “TheArchfiend” explains better of what I’m talking about.
So at the moment of this post, I’m not making anything but I’m trying to find inspiration for my new videos. Since I have been trying to make videos that other people would like, I wasn’t really exploring on creating the videos that I like. And so far I been finding A LOT of inspiration from deviantART http://www.deviantart.com/ GREAT website to find extremely talented artist! I been exploring more into the surreal category of art, and it has been motivating me to create videos in that visual style.
So thanks for reading, lets see where I go with this new creative mindset, and as always, thanks for reading!
December 1, 2013
So one thing that I have been experiencing since I started to chase the film career is constant disappointment. Maybe this situation sounds like you. I made the business cards, I went to networking events, I went to private parties, I handed out my cards like candy, I spammed my videos to everyone that I know, I read tips and advice on how to get more views, I watched every video that I could find from big YouTube channels and interviews from famous movie directors on how to “make it big”, I created accounts on many websites just to share my videos, and I even went jobless for almost a year just to dedicate more time to find a film related job. So what have been my results after doing everything that I thought I was supposed to do….
No one has contacted me from my business cards, my videos are getting very little views, considering that its in the INTERNET! I got blocked from websites because I was considered spam. I got a job that basically paid me $2 dollars an hour. Worked on some projects that stressed me the fuck out and never went anywhere. Spent money that I could definitely have used to pay my bills, and probably the most annoying thing I have experienced is having people flake on you.
However something happened today that made me forget all those negative feelings I had and made me realize that results do come after hard work. On this day that I’m writing this entry, one of my buddies film short that I helped edit together got accepted to a horror film festival.
One of the very first projects that I helped edit together is going to be on a big screen in front of people for the first time in my life. Its kind of a strange moment for me honestly. Considering how many thousands of people submit there work to be picked, the project I helped with got to be one of the 40 to be showed at the festival. So yeah, that’s something to be proud of.
Obviously the rest of the cast has to be proud and it will be a great time to get together again and watch our hard work for 10 great minutes on a movie theater screen! So what happens after that? I’m excited to find out. And of course I’ll continue to post my experiences here in hopes to keep you motivated to reach your goals.
Thanks for reading and peace!
Here’s the short film: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2598018/?ref_=nm_knf_t1
My YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/user/shaostyle
November 15, 2013
OK so this is in response to all the hype about Google+ being merged with YouTube. So first of all, I feel that Google has done more to fuck up the YouTube experience for both viewers and creators. I really do not like any of the changes that has happened since Google bought YouTube. But with every change they make with the layout, all I can do is get used to it. And this is the fucking problem.
Believe me when I tell you that I have tried to move to other video sharing sites and of course, I keep returning to YouTube. The only reason I keep staying with YouTube is because EVERY CHANNEL that I like is still with YouTube. The thing that makes YouTube great is that there is a greater chance of you being able to interact with viewers and the content creators. And that’s what I feel is the main reason why people keep staying with YouTube. Until people say “enough with this shit, I’m leaving” only then will people actually make a change, but for the mean time, people can only vent and tough it out.
So this brings me to my main point. What if Google is able to piss enough people off to the point that everyone starts deleting their accounts and move to other video sharing sites. Lets say people start going to Dailymotion and start looking for new content there. Obviously in this situation, well known YouTube channels will have to go where the people are and that’s what I’m trying to get at.
Whether you like them or not, I’m sure these names will sound familiar if you consider yourself a YouTuber. Ray William Johnson, Freddiew, Smosh, iJustine, JennaMarbles, Phillip Defranco. Whether you like them or not is not the point, what I’m saying is that these people have already made a name for themselves and no matter where they go, I’m very sure their group of viewers will follow and search for them. If YouTube was to be shutdown tomorrow, they will have no problem starting a new page somewhere else because they have enough people that love their videos and will search for them.
So for any artist, that’s probably the best thing to do for yourself. Being able to create a good artistic product that people will follow you off a cliff for because they love your work. And the only way for that to happen is good old fashion hard work. So yes this whole Google+ thing sucks but people will stay because they love their YouTube channels. Thanks for reading and peace!
October 8, 2013
So after creating videos on YouTube for nearly 2 years now, I have a good amount of videos on my channel to make an analysis on what type of videos get more attention and which don’t. Obviously I’m only speaking about my style of video making so your results may be better than mine depending on what you make. So what did I learn after nearly 2 years of video making?…………… jack shit.
No honestly this is something you got to figure out yourself! I’ve done prank videos, original ideas, test video, VFX only, commercials and the results vary from each style of video. All in all the main thing you need to find out is what type of videos are “sharable” because the best advertisement you can have is the word of mouth. Friends sharing your videos with other friends and so on is what gets your channel recognized quick. And that’s where I been failing, my videos are good on there own, but they are not something that make people go “hey look what I found” type of thing.
So this is where I’m trying to change my video making process. At the moment, I know for certain that my videos don’t completely suck, mainly because the people that do see them tell me so, and the likes are higher than the dislikes. So far so good right. However, I’m trying to reach out to more people but without sacrificing my creative freedom. So after thinking about it, I think I may have found my solution. Multiple channels with different content quality for each.
I noticed that some of the videos that did well are what I call “time sensitive” videos. This is when a certain topic is hot on the internet and you can cash in on views if you make something related to that topic. For example, if a popular song is being passed around and played on the radio a thousand times, if you make a parody of the same song, than chances are your video will be viewed because its a trendy topic that people search for. However, the thing I don’t like about this method is that I don’t feel its completely original and its not my own. Riding on the fame of others is kind of dip shit like in my opinion. Also, no matter how good your parody is, people are still celebrating the original and not your own work.
Now again, its your choice on what to do, but there are certain topics that I need to address and that’s when I’ll make a video that can only be understood at the moment. I have thrown out ideas for videos because I took too long to create them and the topic behind the video has become irrelevant. These videos are fun to make because they don’t require too much production time but the quality of the video is very low by my standards, so they are not something I’m fully proud of, but again, they do get attention.
So that’s why I decided to separate my videos by subject quality on different channels. For my own original videos, that I want to feel proud of, I’ll have them on my main channel for people to find eventually. For my “get quick views” videos I’ll post them on my second channel that are fun to make but don’t required much production time. Finally, for my third channel, I’m going to create I new style of video making that I’m experimenting with right now.
My goal is simply to stay busy creating something new, which is what I like to do, meanwhile I create three different types of content quality that may attract different viewers. By them finding one of my channels, it may lead them to my other channels to find content that may have been difficult to find on its own.
Either way I want to create unique stuff. I don’t like creating repetitive content and I don’t like taking forever to create something new. This way I can stay productive and still create the stuff I want but in a organized manner. Each channel will be its own, and be more organized than having random shit all in one channel.
Thanks for reading, peace.
Oct. 3, 2013
So after a year of uploading videos on a near weekly schedule, I finally decided to cut back a bit. Its been a rough past year. I work with my Dad in the construction business, we have our own business together, and a year ago we had a major argument that made quit working for him and led me to attempt the YouTube revenue sharing program. Since I was going to school to be a film maker and I wanted to work in the industry, at the moment, I turned to YouTube thinking that I could attain enough of a following to help me get by with monetizing my videos. Meanwhile, I can gain experience to eventually find a job in something film related, preferably post production work.
OK, first fucking mistake! YouTube is no longer about YOU! Its a major fucking google business that gives priority to already well established channels and the odds of your channel being found is very small. YouTube is very saturated with bullshit and if you want to increase your chances of being known than you may have to pay to advertise your channel. Or make something that goes viral.
Second mistake, money in the film business is usually in the form of a lunch. I tried finding work in the local area in Orange County, I found work but it was little to no pay. I still can not wrap my mind on how someone would hire me knowing that they cant not pay me.
Third mistake, no back up plan. As mentioned I just quit working with my Dad. I started donating plasma to get cash. I was already looking for ways to get extra cash so donating was not that big of a deal, but I did it religiously without missing any opportunity to donate. Yeah it sucked but I learned to get by with only $200+ a month.
So after the all the bullshit with me not being able to find work, I decided to find a regular job until I finished school. While I was looking for a new job my Dad finally decided to talk to me about our past argument and we worked something out. If your wondering what we argued about, I was in charge of dealing with the costumers and my Dad would mainly stay at the shop getting work done. So when I got everything planned out with our costumers, my Dad would change the plans at the last minute causing the customer to get upset with me and it just trickled down from there. Also I wasn’t being payed shit since every dollar we made went straight to the mortgage and other bills. So yeah, working and not being payed is a great recipe for depression and frustration. So I decided to go back to work with him on the condition that I no longer deal with the costumers and I get payed an hourly rate. Everything has been great after that.
So now I’m working and since I don’t have to worry about money anymore I’m able to take time to chill out and think things through. Recently, I decided to take a step back and see how my channel and videos are doing. Well truthfully, I can see the giant progress I have made in regards to VFX. On the plus side, making videos as much as I have really was a great form of practice to understand my software better. On the negative side, my channel is by no means “successful” in any manner. At this moment my channel averages 20-50 views a day and the subscriber rate is maybe 1 new subscriber ever two months. So obviously my channel numbers are a bit depressing.
So that’s when I decided to make some changes and try I new game plan for my channel. Up to this point I noticed that the majority of my videos are mainly “test videos”. By themselves, they are just videos of me standing there doing some random shit along with a VFX and that’s all. So I decided not to upload as much to my main channel and focus more on the quality of my content. In other words, instead of having the constant drive to upload something new on YouTube every week, I’ll take my time to create something worthwhile from beginning to end. I’m not sure how long it will take me to upload something new from now on but I’m definitely going to focus more on quality vs. quantity. So hopefully, I’ll see some positive results on my channel with better produced videos.
Thanks for reading, peace!
At my second YouTube channel, http://www.youtube.com/user/Shaostyle2, I uploaded many videos that I decided to make unlisted because I felt that some people will get the wrong idea if they are not interested in learning about what I experience as a film maker.
This to me is like an open diary, I want to share what I have learned ONLY to those that are interested and go out of there way to learn more about me. I know that I’m not someone that has any big recognition on the internet and I don’t know if I ever will have that recognition. But one thing for sure is that, what I go through, another film maker may experience similar situations and I hope that me sharing these stories can help someone out.
So all of these videos that I post on tumblr are set to unlisted and have been hidden in the dark for a while. I hope some of them are of help to you.
Thanks for reading and peace.